I'm Attending a Funeral Today

I’m attending a funeral today, saying goodbye to a part of me,
I’m saying goodbye to the hurt and the pain
Letting go of memories that to some would be nightmares,

I’m attending a funeral today, and no one else is allowed,
I must do this for me and me alone,
You see no one else knows this person,
It’s a side of me I’ve neva shown,

I’m attending a funeral today, I can only imagine
How the obituary will read,
Many thoughts of what I will say, when it’s time,
To eulogize my hidden counterpart,

I’m attending a funeral today, today I say goodbye,
To a little girl who yearns for love and approval,
From others to validate her existence,
To a young women who was,
Sexually abused and mentally overpowered,
To a woman who has allowed her fear,
Of loneliness to make her accept less than her worth,

I’m attending a funeral today, there won’t be a choir,
No spiritual leader, nor friends or family,
No flowers, coffin and no body,
Just a lost soul who finally has been set free,

I’m attending a funeral today, and I plan to shed my tears
Let them run, there’ll be no holding back, I’m letting them go,
I may scream and shout, maybe even reach my hands out,
But I’m letting go of the baggage and claiming,
The love and respect that I’m so justly due,

I’m attending a funeral today, I’ll be praising and letting go,
Of burden’s and pain,
I’m attending a funeral today and when I am done,
I’ll be set free!

By: Renee Gallman-Jones